Hey everybody welcome back to Cold Case Murder Mysteries. I'm your host Ryan Kraus

returning for another installment in a limited series examining the fascinating mechanics

behind a disturbing mind of infamous serial killer Jeffrey Dahmer, who drugged, raped, strangled, dismembered, and even attempted to create zombies of young men.

It's a story that draws equal sympathy and disgust, one so horrifying, from a visceral standpoint, it's very difficult to even comprehend.

But at the same time, it's a sad tale of loneliness, isolation, and despair, a failure of human purpose, of the ability to achieve true

intimacy.

At its core, that's really what this is about.

Jeffrey Dahmer could not bear to engage the give and take of intimacy with another person.

From the awkwardness to the sacrifice, to the fear of inadequacy, he was truly stifled by the prospect.

I mean, it's painful for every one of us to go out into the world and be rejected.

It truly is as difficult as Dahmer believed. The issue is that

while we all get rejected, fall down, and want to quit. We get back up because we possess the tools to proceed. If the company where you interviewed

yesterday doesn't want you, but you have the required skills, it stands to reason you're going to find a job with persistence. The same thing goes

with having a romantic partner. If you lose one, you can recover and meet somebody else.

It isn't easy, but it's something that happens every day.

If you're Jeffrey Dahmer, however, you don't have the necessary tool set.

So what he desires

he's really asking from a partner is to not be human

to not feel to not want, to not judge, simply to be ignorant, yet to do so in a flesh and blood body.

That was the plight of Jeffrey Dahmer. His father Lionel, as discussed in part

one, said that he spent endless hours in the chemistry lab trying to make sense of life because elements gave him that clarity.

He felt inadequate regarding his understanding of his wife's emotional ailments

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