I don't know. I feel like I've recently turned a corner with this.

A few weeks ago, I made a decision that has changed my life.

I decided that I am happy.

Yeah, decided. Thank you. Thank you. I appreciate that.

I want to be very clear about this. I am not happy. Not one bit.

But I have decided that I am. And I think I may have convinced myself, man.

I mean, just fake it till you make it.

Right? I mean, sometimes life

requires you to be a little bit full of shit.

And now is one of those times.

We pretend 50 times a day.

Why can't we pretend that we're happy?

Right? I mean, you don't think you pretend?

Do the words just saw your text mean anything to you?

It's Depresh Mode. I'm John Moe. I'm glad you're here.

The voice you heard at the top there belongs to Christian Finnegan. He's a comedian and writer,

actor sometimes. It was from his stand-up special Show Your Work, taped in 2020, released in 2021.

Christian has appeared on VH1's Best Week Ever, Chappelle's show, The Today Show, Conan, lots of things.

And when I think about Christian's life, I keep thinking about the idea of a backpack, a backpack that we maybe all get assigned to wear at birth.

It's a figurative backpack.

And as you go through life, rocks get added to that backpack.

They get put in there for you to carry around. Problematic family, throw in some rocks for that.

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