How could I have seen that I had a problem?

I mean, I should have seen because I was waking up with horrific hangovers.

I was depressed, full of guilt.

But what I was choosing to focus on was those more material things, such as the fact

that I'd managed to start a business and that I owned a home. I think another time when it

becomes dangerous is when you're doing your highly functioning sort of act for the benefit of those

around you. And you realise that it's all just getting too hard.

For me, I found that I was able to highly functional drink.

So I haven't really got that phrase about highly functional drink.

I was a highly functional drinker for 20 years of my life.

And then after a bit, it just became so difficult because I was drinking so much

because I needed to drink more in order to feel normal, really.

And because it was so hard, and I couldn't keep up the act for those around me, I just closed the door on my world to ignore the problem for another few years.

And that was when I became an introvert because I thought if I hide away from the world, I turned down all the invites to go out.

Instead of going out and getting blotto and making a tit of myself with my friends,

I'm just going to hide inside and carry on drinking and people will just presume that I'm still functioning,

even though I actually wasn't.

A hangover for me was a full day on the couch.

And I mean it, I could not get up off the couch.

It's interesting how you talk about that, like there was a massive change there, like you changed that drinking.

But actually, that's the insidiousness, if that's a word, of alcohol, of how subtly you made

that change. And that's what's scary within that is that you made that change and probably nobody

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