Hey, I'm Kelly McEvers, and this is Embedded from NPR.

I just want to say there's some strong language in this episode.

And if you haven't heard the first episode in our Capitol Gazette series, you might want to go back and listen to that.

In that episode, we told you about a mass shooting on June 28, 2018 at the Capitol Gazette in Annapolis, Maryland.

And you heard Selene Sanfeles, a reporter who survived the shooting.

She was on CNN the day of the attack.

That night, Selene was also interviewed by police.

Then she got picked up by her parents.

Who suggested they all go out to eat?

And that was just the way that my mom was reacting was like, let's make it better.

Let's just try and push on to be normal.

I mean, they just didn't know what to do.

Selene was obviously not ready to be normal.

She was still going over the terrible thing that had just happened.

Thinking she was about to die, watching one of her colleagues die.

And then you have to look at the menu and decide, like, do you want to drink?

Selene ordered water, no food.

At one point, she got up to go to the bathroom and asked her mom to come with her.

I thought this was very weird because in her lifetime, she would never ask me to go to the bathroom with her.

So it's okay.

This is Selene's mom Oz Sanfeles.

Selene went into a stall.

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