I think of it this way, like in those first 100 days, it's like you're this big canvas

and everything's being stripped off it with your sobriety, everything's coming off it until

it's completely blank. So in that first 100 days, you're sitting with this

blank canvas, which is you. Yeah, with a paintbrush going. And it's boring. And you don't know

what to put on that canvas because everything's come off it. Your whole old life and all your

drinking habits have come off it. But then it takes several years to build on that canvas and start

creating a new picture, which is your new life.

But whilst that canvas is blank, you can feel lost and lonely and sad and bored.

Good analogy, Lucy.

Yeah, thanks for that.

Well done.

But don't worry if that is how you feel because you've got the rest of your life to build on it

and to create this amazing canvas of exactly what you want.

I felt scared. Who am I? I also felt like an ill patient. I felt like I was a patient in hospital.

The brain fog and just generally just feeling so kind of odd and... Like weak?

Week, yeah.

And just I felt, I knew that I had a disease and I was healing from it.

Okay, yeah.

So it was going to take your body a few weeks in that first 100 days

to sort of try and repair itself from the damage that you've done.

Even if you don't drink that much, there's still damage being done.

So you have to sleep when you feel like sleeping and just do what you need to do to get through.

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