I hear him saying to me since I've asked for that separation that he wants to understand and he wants to do different and he wants to make it right.

And there is a huge part of me that wants that for him.

I don't want him to be hurt.

I do want us to be together.

I'd love to just smooth it over and move forward.

But there's also a part of me that feels like some things you shouldn't have to explain, some things you shouldn't have to ask for, some things should be like innately understood. Somebody got to cue me or do I cue myself? Cue yourself. Okay. We'll start. We're just going to start at the beginning. We're just going to do it. Cheam, Albert. We're doing, I am going to cue myself. Hey, we're back with another episode of

Let's Talk Off Camera, so let's get talking. Yeah. I really, really became obsessed this year

with our guest today, Jan. I know it's very rare that you say to me, Jan, I want this person

on this podcast.

She captured my imagination, my spirit, my heart, my soul.

I can't stop looking at her.

I want to, I want her to come unfuck my wardrobe.

I feel like, like look at me. I'm wearing elegant pajamas. You look great.

Sheik. As opposed to the slop I typically wear. I just think her story is compelling. I think she is

compelling. I really think, and I'm going to tell her this when she signs on, I really think

she is a New Yorker. Now, New Yorkers, there are people like my children who are native New Yorkers,

born and raised in New York City, native New Yorkers. And I'm not taking that away from them.

Good for them.

Big deal.

But then there's the rest of us who are born to be New Yorkers. Yeah. Who are maybe from Albert, calm down the outer boroughs. I mean, it's a New Yorker. I know it's a New Yorker, but you. It's not a Manhattan or, right. You know what I'm, right. I mean.

I need to be in New York.

She's a New Yorker.

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