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Mental Illness Happy Hour

Born Into A Notorious Criminal Family - Nicole Y.

Mental Illness Happy Hour

Paul Gilmartin

Health & Fitness, Relationships, Society & Culture, Mental Health, Sexuality

4.86.1K Ratings

🗓️ 22 December 2017

⏱️ 148 minutes

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Summary

Born mixed-race to a white prostitute mother and a black, pimp father, Nicole grew up belonging to one of the most notorious families in the Boston underworld. Having seen and experienced unimaginable things, she found an outlet in music and finally gained a sense of self until drugs and alcohol stepped in. She shares about her new path in healing the PTSD, staying sober and trying to realize her artistic dreams. She also touches on being a lesbian, having a nervous breakdown and a dogged belief in science which cracked open the door for her to reimagine a universe that might hold the love and positivity she has found essential to staying sane. Nicole performs under the name Blu Nyle. Check her out on all social media @BluNyleGlobal or her speaking about the importance of opening up here This ep is sponsored by BetterHelp online therapy. To try a week of counseling for free go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental Must be 18 To become a monthly donor (and qualify for bonus content and goodies from Paul go to www.Patreon.com/mentalpod To make a one-time donations via Paypal go to www.mentalpod.com/donate To help fund Paul's next trip to record international guests, especially in Ireland, go to https://www.gofundme.com/pauls-trip-to-ireland Follow Paul on Twitter and Instagram @mentalpod See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information. See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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0:00.0

Welcome to episode 362 with my guest, Yvonne Y. I'm Paul Gilmart and this is the Metal

0:08.0

Illness Happy Hour, a place for honesty about all the battles in our heads from medically

0:13.4

diagnosed conditions, past traumas and sexual dysfunction to everyday compulsive negative

0:20.0

thinking. This shows not meant to be a substitute for professional metal counseling.

0:25.4

Not a therapist, it's not a doctor's office, it's more like a waiting room that doesn't

0:29.4

suck. The show is part anonymous listener confessions filled out via surveys and then

0:37.8

the other half of the show is a conversation or interview with a guest.

0:47.6

I made fun of, well first of all, I've shared with you guys that I've been doing this

0:55.3

thing at night before I go to bed where I do not crave ice cream at all during the day.

1:01.8

I don't even think about it, but for some reason right before I go to bed, I pretty much

1:08.3

the last last nine months have been eating ice cream because it just feels like a compulsion

1:15.5

and sometimes I can't sleep unless I get up and have a pint of ice cream. I would always

1:23.9

have a pint, one time it was a pint. I was talking on last week's episode or two weeks

1:33.2

ago, I don't remember how long ago, and I was making fun of Sedona and crystals in that

1:39.1

whole kind of stereotype. A listener named Roe wrote to me and she said, you know, I used

1:46.2

to think that crystals were bullshit as well, but could I send you some? I always talk

1:52.9

about being open-minded on the show, sure, send me some. And so she picked out, you know,

1:57.4

one of them is a birth stone, et cetera, et cetera, and she sent them to me. And I'm not

2:02.8

kidding you. I opened up the package at like, I don't know, I'm gonna say 10 o'clock at

2:08.1

night. It was the first night in memory that I was like, I don't feel like eating ice cream

2:17.1

tonight. Was it those fucking crystals? And that was two nights ago, last night, I felt

2:24.0

a little bit of the urge, but I didn't. So what I'm saying is, Roe, your shitty crystals

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