Happy Holidays! As a special bonus and thank you, this patreon-exclusive episode is now out for everyone to listen to. Thank you for sticking with me through 2018, and wishing you and yours a very happy and prosperous New Year! In this episode, we take a closer look at a case that devastated a family, a community and shock the public at large. An entire family was wiped out, and by one of its parents. What had happened in this popular and prominent family in Castlerahan, Ballyjamesduff, Co. Cavan that led to this monstrous tragedy? Was it a case of severe mental health problems, or a sign of domestic abuse? We may never find the answer. Find us on Facebook or Twitter! With thanks to our supporters on Patreon! 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