Welcome to this episode of the award winning best of left podcast. We're doing something

very different today because the world has gone a little different on us. And so I basically

want to do what we do for members to a little bonus episode, which will include some bonus

clips and a collection of interesting thoughts, but it'll be also conversational. Amanda's here.

Hello. I think this might be your first time on the big show. It is my first time on the big show.

She comes behind. She comes by the bonus show every once in a while, but for the sake of this

conversation, we're releasing this to everyone and this will be a regular show for all intents and

purposes. And the reason which everyone will guess, but I'll just explain a little bit, is that I

realized that I had a very bad week this week. And some listeners will remember from fall that I had a

pretty strong reaction to seasonal effective disorder when it came around, when the time changed,

my brain chemicals didn't appreciate it, went on the fritz a little bit, and I was making a show,

which was like a bit of struggle anyway, but then as I was recording, the switch flipped, and I started

crying while recording, even though there's like nothing particularly bad going on in my life.

And so I decided to talk about that on the show because it's good to air those sorts of things.

We have found for the social benefit of mental health. It's good to talk about the things that

are troubling us. And so luckily, I bounced back from that pretty quickly.

Dead, which was really good. I was so glad. I was surprised, but it worked out well, the rest of

the winter. I've been pretty solid. And then the middle of this week, I had a very, very similar

feeling and it rose up in me. And it was like I just saw you in the morning and I could just

tell the face that that was what was happening. It was. Yeah. And I, I feel it first as nausea.

Like, no, I'm not actually going to be sick, but I just have this like nauseous feeling in my

guts and a total demotivation, a, you know, a mental block when it comes to trying to do work.

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