I think a lot of people, when they get an ADHD diagnosis, they do kind of have a grief at the

career they might have had if they've been diagnosed younger and understood how to manage themselves.

I definitely feel like that. I think I missed a lot of opportunities, but I think I've done,

I've done well enough. So if I wasn't someone who wrote honestly about, you know, the kind of tussles we all

have internally, I think we can all present as normal, can we.

What opportunities do you think you've missed?

I think I lacked confidence to do and pursue certain things. And I think that lack of confidence was actually about ADHD,

whereas before I just thought it was because I was not a strong person.

But I realise now that actually having ADHD and getting where I have

does make me quite strong because I've kind of managed to sort of tooth and claw

fight my way through all that kind of

procrastination and madness and stimulant seeking and but I think there was a very strong very

negative internal narrative that I had to deal with all the time and I think that held me back

what does that sound like internal negative narrative? But you know what ADHD chatter is?

Well, imagine all that ADHD chatter is attacking you.

That's a lot.

Can you imagine that?

All those different voices in your head, all the different strands coming in,

you know, when you wake up in the morning and there's,

have you seen the film hellraiser

yes there's spikes coming out of here that's that's what internal chatter is like when it's you know

you're being pulled apart by your your centered calm focused confident core is being pulled apart

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