You're listening to song exploder where musicians take apart their songs and piece by piece tell the story of how they were made. I'm Rishikesh, your way.

One of the weird things about making a podcast is that I spend most of my time by myself in front of a computer

talking into a microphone with no one else in the room and having no idea who might be listening to it or where they are or what they're like.

But I thought I could ask you to maybe tell me a little bit about yourself and do it in the most personal way possible through an anonymous survey.

It would actually really be very helpful to get to know a little bit more about you and to get some of your feedback about the podcast.

So if you have two minutes to do that, please visit survey.prx.org slash song.

Again, that's survey.prx.org slash song.

Thank you so much.

Before we get started, a note about the content of this episode.

It contains explicit discussion of suicide and suicidal thoughts.

So please take care when listening.

Also, if you or someone you love is having thoughts of suicide, confidential help is available for free.

You can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-TALK.

That's 800-273-8255.

You can also text the crisis text line. Just text hello to 741-741.

You're not alone.

Billie Eilish started releasing music when she was 14 years old.

Her debut album came out last year when she was 17.

It debuted at number one on Billboard.

It went triple platinum and won five Grammys.

Billie made that record with her brother and creative partner, the producer and artist Phineas.

While working on that album, they also started writing this song, Everything I Wanted,

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