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Have a great day. As I'm not accustomed as I am to perfect speaking, I don't think I can get started.

Unless I introduce myself as we always do in our A-N-Eans in Texas.

I'm Esther and I'm an alcoholic and following the cur of A. To the best of my ability, I was

about 12 years yesterday. But I know that the only way that I can maintain my sobriety is to remember always what I was like 12 years ago this weekend. I am shaking like a leaf all over small.

But at least I know where I am and that if I continue to do day what I have done in these last 12 years, I will stay sober till I die.

I didn't know that when I came in. I knew that I wanted to try AA. But that it was worked,

well I didn't think anything was worked. And I think that we have to do time in AA before we realize that it's

going to work for us. I wish I could tell you how and why AA works. I don't know. I only know that it does if you desire it with your

whole heart and without reservation. I think that none of us come to AA until we've tried everything we can think of.

I know that I had thought and if only I had found AA, years before I did, that I would have saved myself so much of the shame and

degradation of the last few years.

But as I've grown in AA, I realized that a person was as much self-will as I had and its heart ahead and its disease and ego

that I had to try everything that I could drink of and bump my head up against every stone wall before I was ready

to come in.

The only thing I have really into it's all the

just what sort of a drunk I was.

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