On the new podcast, The Turning, Room of Mirrors, we look beneath the delicate veneer of American ballet

and the culture formed by its most influential figure, George Balanjine.

He used to say,

What are you looking at, dear? You can't see you only I can see you.

What you're doing is larger than yourself, almost like a religion.

Like, he was a god.

Listen to The Turning, Room of Mirrors on the I Heart Radio app, Apple Podcasts or wherever you get your podcasts.

Hi, baby, that's Lisa and we're just two girls that want to have a conversation with you.

Dear 16-year-old Andrea.

Hey, gorgeous.

Dear younger Lauren.

Each episode is stories from people I would deprive myself, why myself obsessively.

Because I was eating healthy, I couldn't understand that I had a problem with food.

Losing my period scared me the most. My story starts when I was around seven.

That's when I started to hate my body.

Body image is like our inner picture of our outer self.

Healthy behaviors play a much bigger role in our health than the actual number on the scales.

Internal dialogue can be so powerful and often it's super negative and critical

in a way that we wouldn't talk to other people that we care about.

When you start to share your story, that gives other people the courage to share theirs.

You would be proud now of how far you have come in your relationship to food, exercise, and to yourself.

I felt freedom. I've gained relationships. I've found my true sense of self worth.

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