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Nikki Atamondo is frozen at a traffic light in Pekipsi, New York.

It's two in the morning.

Her kids are asleep in the back seat.

She sees a cop pull up behind her.

For the past nine years, Nikki has been in a relationship with Chris Grover, a local

gymnastics coach and the children's father.

Chris's blood is on Nikki's leggings.

Her own blood is in her underwear.

She's explaining this to the cops right now.

Tonight she says she made a decision to survive.

Nikki is sure she acted in self-defense.

She thinks the fight for her life is finally over.

He was hurting her, really badly.

How many times does her arm have to get dislocated before somebody reports him?

We love a true crime story when the woman is dead.

Her naked body is the starting point of most podcasts.

Only in death can she secure her status as the perfect victim.

No voice, no power, no pulse.

That's why Nikki's story is the upside down story.

It's the story we don't tell.

The one where she survives.

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