Welcome to the Eric Metaxus show with your host, Eric Mettaxas.

Welcome back.

Final segment with my guest, Barbara Quito, from mafia princess to God's princess.

So we're getting to the good part, Barbara, where God comes into your life to stay.

Yes.

So your mother, as you said, after all these years, she somehow, she finds God.

She found Jesus, she'll tell you.

Yeah.

Through the Catholic charismatic

renewal at the time. So she brought him home. We all got to experience that. But of course,

the damage had been done. My father by this time was sober. Again, miraculously, as I was telling

you earlier, God didn't just drop miracles left and right because God is present with us.

And if we look and ask, he'll do these things in our lives.

That's what I've discovered through these years.

So, okay, I was back at the Pekas Benedictine monastery where I had wanted to stay before it broke my heart.

They wouldn't let me stay. I thought I had something to do with someone knowing who I was. Isn't that interesting, though? You always feel like. But that's so interesting that we think about that. But we'll put that to the side. I don't even know if you think about it. You just always feel like everyone can see what's going on. Which should be the very reason they would welcome you because, you know, your heart desires not to be that person.

And on the contrary, you think they see that, but God really does see it.

And he goes, I love you anyway, baby girl.

You're everything to me.

And he reaches out to show you that.

And over and over and over again, if you're knucklehead like me. So I reaches out to show you that. And over and over and over again,

if you're knucklehead like me. So I went back to the monastery and everything had changed. It was

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