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Welcome to the bad broadcast. I name's Maddy. I'm your host. Thanks for being here today. Hope you're having a wonderful morning or afternoon or evening or middle

of the night breastfeeding session. Whenever you are choosing to listen to this, thank you.

I'm appreciative and I love you. I'm feeling good today. I'm feeling good. I just had like probably

the worst four days of my life. I don't want to say the worst four days of my life. It way, way, way too dramatic. I just had like probably the worst four, I don't want to say the worst four days of my life.

Way, way, way too dramatic. I just had a rough last few days. I'm in my ludial phase, which

sometimes I feel like we know too much about ourselves. Most of the time I feel like we don't know

enough, especially as women. We really don't learn nearly enough about our bodies. But then when I

like enter my ludial phase and I can sense it coming on and I feel myself be evil and just like a

shell of who I was three days ago, I'm like, why did we clue ourselves into the ludial phase?

Because what we used to do is just pretend it didn't happen

and then we got through it. And you know what I hate more than anything is when the stereotype

of being crazy before your period is actually true. And I try to fight that every time. I'm like,

this is not my period. I gaslight myself so hard because I hate, I hate that that's right when people are like, oh, she must just be on her period. It's so annoying to me. And then when it turns out to actually be the case, I feel even worse about it. You know, we'll just get personal for a moment. I have thought that I've had PMDD for a while, like since being

postpartum, my periods are just very bad. They're very emotional. They're really disorienting.

The emotions are what's what's really gotten worse since being postpartum. When I'm in the week

or so before my period, if you don't know, by

the way, PMDD is premenstrual dysphoria. It's like an elevated PMS. But a couple days before I start

my period, I seriously, I emotionally, physically, everything feel like I am about four days

postpartum. Like just incredibly depressed, physically not myself, like just in a weird place.

Not to mention, I have, sorry, we're going to talk about my period for a moment.

So if that's going to bother you, I'm sorry, I just have to get this out.

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