Hey everyone. Welcome back to Ground Kid. I'm Gail. And I'm Kayla. And you ever feel like you want to have control of every part of your life to an unnecessary degree?

To the point where it just kind of becomes ridiculous and hindering and it's like, girl, just relax, like, girl, chill.

Well, if you have, you're not the only one because I can't handle an inch of not being in control clearly.

So that's just my experience.

Do you think this shows up in every area of your life?

Yeah.

Low key, yeah.

I like people have, this is stupid and I hate, like, I don't, I need like an, an immunity pass for whatever I say, okay? Immunity blanket. Thank you. But sometimes I'll have friends tell me, like, yeah, I just feel like you always get what you want. And you're like, you're like, yeah, you kind of just get whatever you want, so I'm just used to it. And sometimes they say it, like, in a good way, but it just doesn't sound right. Like, it makes me feel like, damn, bitch, like, why? Like, I mean, it's, obviously it's good. Like, I would like to get things that I want, you know, who wouldn't? But on the other hand, it just makes me think, like, fuck, why is that? I don't know, I just, I don't know. That phrase makes me maybe at times uncomfortable because I'm like, I feel spoiled.

And I don't know, but part of it is like, for example, in my routine, like, I feel like

I'm constantly the one making plans and like setting the itinerary because I'm like,

shit, well let me just take control.

It's like, what do I want to do?

I have noticed this in you, of course.

I see your need for control and that's the thing too.

I agree with other people and they say like you do get what you want.

Both sides of the spectrum, you know, good and bad. And the thing is, I don't even try to argue

because trust me, I'm a controlling ass bitch too. Let me clear it up first off. Control off right now.

But I feel like with Gail, you're the type of controlling that like,

if things are not in a way that is aligned with you and your wants and desires at that time,

you just simply won't participate. Whereas me, I feel like I'm controlling in a way of just like,

give me a time and place and I will be there.

But I can go according to other people's schedules.

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