Hey everyone, it's me Allison Rosen your sad new best friend

I am doing okay though and if anyone is listening to this

It just you know out maybe maybe you came here because of alley ward maybe you're not familiar with me and you're thinking why are you sad?

It's because my dad died on July 12th. So I'm okay

But you know I've been happier and weird things have been happening like and I feel like this is is normal

But like last night I was I've been getting tired really early or just I sort of you know

I'll be okay during the day and then maybe around like six or seven. I start to feel like

My emotions are really catching up with me. So I'll get in bed

Maybe like around eight

and then just kind of fuck around on my phone and just

Just take a take a break and

I had fallen asleep a little I was kind of in and out of sleep and Daniel was in the other room coughing because he's a little bit sick right now

and

For a second I think I must have actually been dreaming because I thought it for a second. I thought it was my dad

I

Thought he was there and then I kind of you know woke up and and like in an instant

Realized oh no, that was just Daniel and my dad's gone and

And then and those moments where the reality comes just crashing back are

Hard and I also keep

replaying

There's a lot about the end I keep replaying I know that that's just part of grief but I

Keep

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