Hey, it's NPR's Book of the Day. I'm Andrew Limbong. Today's interview is a heavy one. It's with

Alice Carrier about her memoir, Everything, Nothing, Someone. Nominally, I suppose it's about her

mental health disorder and her uniquely dysfunctional family. But as you'll hear, this interview with

NPR's Elsa Chang takes so many twists and turns that I keep coming back to this idea of change, that who we are now, who our parents are now, and what we think of them, all of that stuff is malleable, subject to change, even in the most extreme circumstances.

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By almost any standard, Alice Carriere had an extraordinary childhood.

She's the daughter of Jennifer Bartlett, an internationally renowned artist who also

happened to be an emotionally

distant mother. Her father is a popular German actor, Mathieu Carrier, who exhibited

inappropriate behavior during Alice Carriere's childhood. We want to warn you that we will be discussing

that part of her life later on in this conversation. As Carrier entered

her teen years, her brain started to splinter into a dissociative disorder. I couldn't recognize my

own face in the mirror. I had no connection to my feelings, my body, my history. I was convinced I

didn't exist. I would write to keep myself from getting completely lost.

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