My crew was going here and then my happiness levels were going down here, but it would like get me through the day to be like at least everything externally is great because you know, I felt very vulnerable after my public relationship ended because I was just like, oh wow.

I just gave my heart to someone and now I don't know where that part's going to go.

Like, can you give it back?

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Welcome back to Halo with Emrata.

You came up in an era, I think around the same time that I was really utilizing social media and building a following.

What has that been like dealing with the separation of the real you and then the one that you put out in the world?

I feel like you've talked about it on TikTok and you know, I've seen kind of how your social has changed over time because I do feel at one point it was like this real curated vision.

And I feel like you're trying to move away from that. Have you found that difficult and how do you protect yourself in that as well?

What I've learned is sometimes growth isn't like seen to the bare eye, especially to the public.

So for me, I actually just stopped trying to show 100% of myself on a box.

And that actually released a lot of weight that I'd been carrying around because I'm like, I have to show myself like I'm a human, I have a heart doll.

How can I show myself? I'm not just a shell. Whereas now what I see social media as is just one aspect of myself.

So I see like the 12 year old version of Alexis like, you know, she's homeschooled but she's putting clothes out different outfits for each day of the week even though she's at home all day.

And she's like making her little sister take photos of her. So there's this like pureness that I've welcomed back into my life.

So now for me, it's just fun. And I don't try and like put that pressure to like, this is who I am because it will come out when it needs to on the right platforms in different ways.

So I'm not. So for me, it's like the intention has completely changed. But I think to like someone who doesn't know me, they wouldn't see much of a difference, but so much has changed within me.

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