Infoars, the most banned network in the world.

The most banned network in the world.

The first part of life is about trying to escape from the conditions of birth,

recognizing that there are material restrictions and then feeling that maybe social and cultural

routes will provide a solution.

Maybe if I become a star, if I have material means, if I can get

myself to Hollywood, if I can become a stand-up comedian, if those things play out for me, maybe I'll be

okay. But all the while, as a drug addict, first of all, and then a recovering drug addict,

recognizing there has to be a greater spiritual solution. And because I'm a drug addict in recovery,

and because I'm from an ordinary background there in the UK, recognizing that there seem to be

these systems of authority and control that you have to navigate and negotiate and deal with,

even if these are simple little things like school and law and order and that they claim moral and ethical supremacy, but you see that perhaps they're being controlled by

other ulterior or somehow transcendent systems. Then, you know, for a minute, the hedonism is

enough, the drugs are enough, the promiscuity and the access to favours and delights and pleasures and distractions

and prestige are enough. But because of that sort of spiritual yearning that any recovering

drug addict or alcoholic will know, any seeker will know, there's a kind of sense that this is not

it. This was never it. Of course, success, personal individual success is never going to be enough.

All the while amidst this, I'm still occupying peripheral spaces as a person in recovery.

I'm still educating myself with people like you and David Ike, listening to renegade voices,

reading esoteric books, looking at credible academic sources, as well as people

like you that suffer smears and condemnation and attacks that aren't perfect that make mistakes,

don't we all, damn it, and starting to aggregate and accumulate and curate my own purview

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