My true cognizance of the fact that I'm going to die, like, happened in, like, 2020.

And I feel like I described it as, like, when the door opened.

Is that pandemic related at all?

We're on this ride. We can't get out.

And I just had this sensation of, like, wanting to, like, zip myself open and jump out of myself.

But I couldn't.

I would think the fear of death would give you the opposite of like, I want the safety of this container.

I want to be in my body.

And I want the safety of a ride that has me strapped in so I can't fall out.

So explain to me why it's, that's not true.

That I'm wasting away, grieving what's still alive, and fight with an ache that won't subside.

I think, you know, in the chorus, I say, like, grieving what's still alive and fighting with an ache that one subside, which I find myself doing all the time.

And I think I'm not able to enjoy present moments because I'm always thinking about them ending.

There's a way to be sensitive and be a sponge to the world without being self-destructive.

And you really just have to find it.

You know, you can live a very healthy, beautiful life and still make beautiful music and connect with people without putting yourself through help. So maybe I wish that I was more

encouraged to, like, sit with my sensitivity and just like learn how to use it better, you know.

What is your relationship status right now? I'm in a relationship.

Hey. Yeah.

You know, you know you're in a healthy relationship when like your fear is not of them, like,

cheating on you or the relationship ending, it's of something happening to them.

What do you wish people complimented you about yourself on one more?

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