I'm Mark Dowd and in the next hour on the BBC World Service I'll be reporting on the

impact of an event that is perhaps the most difficult to

understand for those left behind death by suicide. It can be a painful and

complex death to deal with because it triggers a welter of confusing emotions.

Loss and yet anger, abandonment and yet a profound bewilderment, trying to work out why someone you thought you knew could think that

everyone will be better off without them.

Dana Marks lost her brother Josh to suicide more than four years ago. She spent a lot of time trying to

imagine what may have been going through his mind. I know that it seems heavy, it seems unbearable to carry it seems that there's no one else who

understands but in all actuality remember that you are loved, you are valued, whether you recognize it or not.

And the immediate pain, suffering ends for you. it doesn't end for everyone else. It's just transferred.

Dana understands the grief of those bereaved by suicide only too well, And there are many like her. Hundreds of thousands of

people worldwide take their own lives every year according to the World Health

Organization. And because data is difficult to gather in some areas of the world

where suicide is taboo, the true figures are likely to be much higher. Tragically, it's also the

second leading cause of death amongst 15 to 29 year olds globally.

One British charity reports that in the UK alone in 2015 more than 1,600 people under 35 took their own lives. Nearly

1300 of these were boys and men. In this program I'll be meeting people in Britain and in the United States who have lost a family member this way.

People like Angela Somata, a mother of two sons from Northern England who lost her partner Mark to suicide when he was

aged just 32. One of the worst times for me was when Benjamin, the youngest one, was

in the school play and I wished so hard that Mark was sitting next to me and it was ironic

that the seat next to me was actually empty and I just remember becoming very very angry angry, not at him, but at the situation, at the fact that this

little boy was on the stage singing his heart out and his father who he was probably singing

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