Lemonada

Okay, I want to talk about acne.

I want to struggling with acne.

I've struggled with it my entire life since I was maybe, you know, 15, 16. And as a kid,

naturally, my skin was really smooth. You know, by 12, 13, 14 people start getting blemishes.

There weren't any insight for me, just smooth, flawless skin until puberty hits.

Initially, I thought it was happening for me because of, I was on TV and I'd have to have

like thick, kicked on makeup under the bright lights. It was a sitcom set, so you're very far away

from the cameras and they just kind of pound on the makeup so you don't look dead. I'm very pale and I can look very corpse-like very easily.

So they would just kind of pack that on and I thought, okay, it's a result of just makeup for 12 hours a day plus

bright lights and it's just seeping into my pores.

And I tried a lot of, honestly my mom had me try a lot of stuff then, but I don't know.

I used to think she was like a skincare expert, and now the older I've gotten,

and the more clarity I've gotten on her, I'm like, I don't know what she was doing there.

Anyway, I thought it was just because of bright lights and heavy makeup.

And then, you know, and of course, I was on shows for

like years. And then it stopped and not the acne did not stop. The TV shows stopped. And I still had

acne. I would try keeping my face makeup free as many days as I could, but also the biggest thing for me is

it makes me so insecure. Oh, my God, you guys, like, it just, it affects my self-esteem really negatively.

Like, if I'm having a good skin day, I'll feel so much better about myself. And they are few and far

between. And then most of the time when I'm really struggling, just makes me feel kind of crummy.

But anyway, I was saying I would try to keep makeup off my face, but I'd be insecure about

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