Lemonnader.

I'm right in the thick of abandonment issues.

And the reason that I'm in my abandonment issues is kind of hilarious.

It's because my assistant quit. I'm here. So it happened yesterday where she was like, hey, can you talk on the phone for a sec?

I was in the middle of stuff and I was like, can you text or voice moment?

She goes, no, can you call? And I was scared, I went in for some health appointments

last week, and so I was scared like, oh,

fuck, did my results come back back?

Like what's going on?

I was kind of scared.

And I always, like I often go to worst case scenarios I catastrophize so that was happening

I was like let me just call and get it over with trying to tell myself I'm sure it's fine I'm sure it's

fine. Lo and behold it wasn't it was not fine it in fact was not fine what a

fucking tumor have been worse yeah my assistant leaving a close second yes I loved she was awesome she was so responsible so on top of it I

just felt like I could trust that she was going to handle it.

Whatever it was she was going to figure it out, she was going to take care of it in a timely manner,

and I envisioned working with her for a long time.

Like I envisioned her role in my life, in my career rather, changing and us working more together in other ways in expansive ways and I just felt like

she's so good like she's I want to find ways of continuing to work with her and

build that out.

Oh my God, these fucking planes.

I've lit, you guys, I've literally stopped and recorded this

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