A prayer to be fully satisfied by God's love, written by Emily Rose Massey and read by

Kelly Gibbons.

But to all who did receive him, he gave them the right to be children of God, to those

who believed in his name, who were born not of blood or of the will of the flesh or

of the will of man, but of God.

For the majority of my life, I struggled to feel truly loved by my dad, who was an

on-again, off-again recovering alcoholic.

Because of that missing piece, I longed to find love and constantly sought out approval

and attention from boys, giving myself away peace by peace.

First becoming entangled by pornography, then slowly moving towards sexual encounters

beginning at the tender age of 12, and going on until I was 22 years old, a whole decade

of my life.

I knew John 316 by heart, but I didn't fully understand it.

I couldn't shake the religious upbringing that taught me only about a vengeful, angry

God, who would smite me down if I were not perfect.

I still felt like I had to work for forgiveness and love.

That performance dreamy mentality affected all areas of my life.

No matter how hard I tried to be perfect, I never felt good enough.

I reached a point where I stopped trying and just lived.

In college, I made plans to run away to Los Angeles.

I would be an actress and prove the world my worth, talent, beauty, and charm.

But one Sunday morning, only a couple months after I graduated, my eyes were truly open

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