Life Audio.

Thank you for listening to your daily prayer, a podcast dedicated to helping you find the

words you need to connect with your father in heaven.

No matter what's going on in your life today, you can trust that God

wants to hear from you. Right after the short word from our sponsor, we'll pray through

today's prayer for when you don't feel great at anything. Written by

Payton Garland, read by Leah Gerard. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Psalm 23-6.

I masquerade an embarrassing mediocrity that most might mistake for success.

I can hide hordes of dirty laundry in my bedroom closet and close the door right before company arrives. So my house looks

spotless and organized on a casual Tuesday afternoon. I can boast in my English

degree all its awards and honors without ever telling you that the only reason I majored in English

was because I failed out of my first pre-med biology class.

I can play the happy wife at dinner to ensure you have no clue my husband and I got into a heated

tiff on the car ride over.

It can look like my favorite hobby is playing on the floor with my Taek when in truth there are so many times I just put on his little dancing fruit videos so I can curl up in a corner and cry or or scream into a pillow, sob, let out whatever emotion erupts first.

I can make you think, I'm a devoted Christian who doubts nothing.

It's as easy as posting a Bible verse on social media and never

mentioning just how often I'm not so sure that I see God is kind, merciful, and truly

for me. I'm good at many things, often trivial and fake things,

but I'm not sure I'm great at anything worthwhile. My heart often feels too anxious, too heavy,

too confused, to believe my messy life has the spiritual substance to shift someone else's access for good, let alone to please God.

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