This will always be the case that whatever stands between you and your land of promise will always be at flood stage. It will always threaten to drown you. It will always threaten to take you completely under because if you thought you could do it, it would not be a God thing.

Listen, I'll never forget doing this. A couple of years ago, I was reflecting back on a time of my life where honestly I was breaking free from a really long, long hold that the enemy had had on me.

And he just brought me so much defeat in my heart and in my mind over it.

And just, I come from a background of victimization that started very early on. It was so integral

into my personality, so much a part of who I was. I had no, not only did I not have any

boundaries. I did not even know how to voice the word no. I don't know

if some of you can enter into that with me, but it was almost not even in my vocabulary. I would

go as far as to say that it was not, especially if it was a strong figure of any kind, an authoritarian

type of personality that to this day a bully just makes the hair on the back of my neck stands straight up. That personality drives me crazier than any other. And it just freezes me. It just freezes me. And it makes me feel like I have to remind myself, you do get to say no to a bully. And you get to say it loud and you get to say it proud. You get to look him straight in the eye and go, you know what? You don't tell me what to do.

I am too old to be bullied by you. Anybody know what I'm not about me? Just, no, not bullied. Not bullied.

My God is my boss. My God is my boss. And my God is not a bully.

Anybody?

My God is not a bully.

So that whole thing, and God was breaking that hold over me.

And I literally, he was breaking some areas of bondage where I had some just behavioral

addiction to certain things. And just like, oh, some of you know what I'm

talking about.

And he came rip-orin into my life and took about a year or two to go down really deep and completely kill a very self-destructive part of me that just needed

desperately to be crucified with Christ so that that woman that was looking for self-destruction

continually would no longer live but the Spirit of Christ would live

through my person and I could live in some semblance of consistent victory. Anybody got that

with me? That's what I'm talking about. And so that worked, when you're going through that kind of

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