Welcome to Unfucked your brain, the only podcast that teaches you how to use psychology, feminism, and coaching to rewire your brain and get what you want in life. And now here's your host, Harvard Law School Grad, Feminist Rockstar, and Master Coach, Kara Loyenthyle. Hello my chickens. How are you guys all holding up? We have been tackling some big

stuff this month so it's okay if you feel a little mind-blown, you feel a little shook, it's all right.

If you haven't listened to the past few episodes, especially the

perfectionist fantasy and problem thinking episode.

I think they're useful background for this episode.

I mean, I think they're just useful in general,

if I do say so myself, but I think they're useful background for this episode. So you might want to go

listen to that first, okay? So the last few weeks we've been talking about numbing and quote-unquote compulsive behaviors again not compulsive in a

clinical sense where you need professional mental health care to deal with it but

just those habits that you wish you could stop but feel kind of out of your control, right?

Where you tell yourself you only want to drink on the weekends, but then you find yourself drinking on a Wednesday, right?

Or, and it's not, you know, we're not talking about drinking a fifth of vodka in the morning,

but just you decide, I don't want to have that nightly glass and wine,

I only want to drink on the weekends, but then's Wednesday you have a glass of wine right or you tell yourself that you're not going to check social media while you're working and then all of a sudden you're on social media.

So just those habits that you wish you could stop but they feel very

kind of difficult to control in the moment you almost feel like you're doing them against your

own will or almost like beyond your own conscious control like you don't remember making the

conscious decision to do them right they're really like automatic

habits they just happen so that's what the last two episodes are about.

And in the last couple of episodes, I talked about how you can work on changing those behavioral patterns. And today I want to talk about what is sometimes going on when you try to solve those or you solve them for a

while and then all of a sudden you stop, right? You quote unquote fall off the wagon or you quote unquote backslide I'm putting all that in

quotes because I'm really strict in the collect with my students that there's no

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