Hi everybody. I were here. My voice is weird today. I feel fine. Heather loved being Mormon,

so she and her husband split up. After that, she says, people in the church treated her and her kids

differently. She realized she would never have the perfect Mormon family. She was still a believer,

but she started secretly, doing things as members of the church

aren't supposed to do. She slept with men. She wasn't married to. She drank. But on the surface,

she kept up appearances, lived a double life for years before she quit the church. A double life

with occasional moments where she thought she might get found out.

You know, as a Mormon person, you're not supposed to drink coffee.

And that seems fairly innocuous, fairly simple.

But I was slipping and I was drinking coffee.

And I had gotten myself a coffee before I picked up my kids from school.

And they were young enough that they wouldn't understand or get it.

And, oh, my gosh, yeah.

And my friend saw me and, like, waved and started to walk over to the car.

Saw you come out of a coffee shop?

Nope.

She just saw me in the car pool line standing there. But I had a hot coffee in my car, and it was fall, and that meant like if I unrolled the window, the smell of coffee was going to waft out right and smack her in the face.

And so I started to panic, and I unrolled the window, and I can remember, like, the panic.

And you just learn to lie so easily and so quickly and I think I said oh I'm not drinking it I just love the smell and fall don't worry don't

worry I just love the smell and she accepted that and said oh I do Isn't it so tempting? And we both just kind of sat there.

Like, obviously, I didn't buy a coffee for the smell. You know, it was just a conversation that was

completely fake, and we both engaged in it. And so when she said, oh, it's so tempting,

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