How long gone got him?

It's Chris Black. It's my last day in silt germany um my last

soup for dinner maybe for the rest of my life um them jeans how are you feeling good back in

cally hot summer days afoot i've also been eating soup you're doing it you're doing it my choice though

um i guess i'm an elective soup i guess i am too technically i guess i am well i i you i have a

a kitchen full of options and you don't poor guy no i don't i mean i never want a kitchen full of

options as long as i live, but I,

you know, actually, I was, I was thinking about that where people are like, you know what,

you know, with weight loss and everything. Like, I just can't keep anything in the house. As long as

that happens, I'm, I'm okay. And to me, that feels a little, a little soft. I feel feel like you're you're quitting when it's a little

too early do you do you see my logic here where like you you should be able to push through

yeah yeah of course you've given up and the at the uh in the eighth inning weirdly if there

was a bottle of oxycontin in my house i wouldn't even think about it but if there

was a box of oreos i'm fucking scratching my arms really oh totally yeah totally because in my mind

there's one thing i just cannot have and that's drugs and alcohol that's like a very clear line

but like a couple cookies i know i'm gonna wake up the next day and feel fine i know my

life's not going to be ruined you know i know i'm not going to do anything i shouldn't do um i'll

just feel personal guilt because i hate myself and that's you know that's something i think we all

deal with okay well the same way some people are like i have to you know i have to remove all social media from my phone I have to block the

IP address of Pornhub I have you know yeah if I if I look at the Reddit or if I look at my

comment section of my video on YouTube I will go into a full mental breakdown.

I feel like that, you know, you're walking the thin line. It's just one little thing to go wrong and

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