And I'm going to do this experiment. I'm going to say this prayer. I'm going to do your work. I'm just going to say it again and again and again.

And I'm going to see if meaningful work shows up for me.

In life, fortune favors the bowl and I think it's when we truly follow, courageously follow our soul that life begins to truly

conspire and support us, maybe not in the ways we thought, but in the ways that we need.

I remember cussing after my meditation

because I knew that's what I heard.

And it was like, the moment you know you're accountable.

And I was like, oh, no.

And I felt that I was on the precipice of calling that night.

And I did feel like what you said

was that all of these things were coming to a head.

We only think we need the money a month before or a week before or whatever

because it's for our own security,

but life just knows that it'll come

if you get out of the way.

I'm trying to give it to you, but get out of the way.

And it was then that I felt I can't stop doing this. I mean this is this was maybe the thing that I was looking for all along.

That day my life changed you, you know?

Because I have moments in my life when I was finally seen by someone. There is a natural human attraction to people who are

vulnerable going for it.

Because every time I was broke, I survived.

The times of my accounts were negative, I survived.

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