Hello my beautiful people and welcome back to the moments podcast. I cannot even begin to describe to you the kind of day that I'm having.

One of those days where it feels impossible to catch your breath, like I knew that coming into this Monday I was going to have a nice big fat long to do this because this weekend was so much fun and

I literally can't even breathe right now. No but this weekend was so much fun and I celebrated my Kulani launch my brother graduated high school my mom's best friend also known as my second mother had her 50th birthday party and we had too much fun.

So I also think I'm having a little bit of that anxiety still lingering around on like the third day after drinking alcohol. That's a whole other discussion that we can get into at a later date because you know how I feel about it. But am I going to stop taking shots? Absolutely not.

Point here. Lots going on in my brain. Lots to catch up on today. And this morning was really really frustrating because on the days that I have a lot to do I really try to get up and go to the sunrise because when I start my day hours earlier the day feels longer and I feel more productive and I can breathe easier.

But this morning I tried to wake up my alarm went off and what I did was I took my phone off the charger I turned the alarm off told myself I was going to go back to sleep and gave myself grace for allowed myself in my mind to catch up on sleep.

But I didn't I just kept waking up like every 10 minutes with this insane feeling of holy shit.

Oh, excuse my language. I can't breathe. I have so much to do. But I physically wouldn't get out of bed because I had so much to do and I knew that once I got up I had to start doing the things.

I still got out of bed around 9 9 30 but I don't know if anyone else has ever experienced that feeling. It's like a really crippling feeling and I used to experience it a lot when I was living in Hawaii which I think had a lot to do with why I was going down such a bad path and such a bad spiral because in Hawaii that sleep in time was much late.

Thankfully now I'm back on a better wake up schedule. The point is when you start a day like that the rest of the day just feels it's hard to come back from that.

And I've been doing everything in my power to come back from it by the time I got out of bed fed Leia walked Leia went and worked out.

Thought that that would make me feel better and I just felt angry in my workout. It was the strangest thing and finally by right now I'm starting to feel slightly better mentally but physically my body is just not reacting nicely to anything today.

I'm super shaky. Can't catch my breath.

I'm excited through the roof and quick side note I got my brain scan evaluation I'm going to do a whole podcast episode telling you everything about that because the results are so cool.

It's crazy how much sense it makes. You know obviously it is my brain scanned of course everything is going to be relatable to me but something about the doctor just explaining things to me and like making me feel so normal and I guess finally being properly diagnosed with the kind of ADHD I have was really comforting.

And really cool and there's so much I want to share but one of the things that was honestly the most impactful to understanding myself was that one of the scans scans the activity in your brain and sees what's the most active in my basal ganglia which is basically the part of my brain responsible for sense of calm is super super active and to feel more calm you want that to be less active but even at rest because they scan my my brain in two states they scanned it hard at work and concentration.

And once at rest my basal ganglia was going off like those guys were lit as heck when she she was just kind of asking she's like are you constantly stressed even if you're not don't have too much to be stressed stressed about or worried about the future.

And I was like girl you're preaching to the quiet you're not even the choir I'm the CEO of just always being overwhelmed and you guys have listened to this podcast enough to know that.

So I was just comforting to see that they're obviously are going to be things I do in the future to work on fixing that and calming down that section of my brain but knowing that that's why I feel that way makes it a little bit easier to feel that way so all throughout today I'm telling you those guys are on overdrive right now the basal ganglia is going crazy because I physically it is stopping me from being able to catch my breath but I am human and we all have those days and I wanted to still sit down and record because.

One I know that you're probably feeling this to or have before and two because talking to you guys really does bring me a sense of peace that I can't explain it it just does I think it's it's basically like having a therapy session with all of my best friends in one place and.

Also just sitting down and re grouping my thoughts and and recollecting everything.

I just blanked point is let's move on I wanted to do a little advice session I really like these because they align really nice in my mind because a lot of the advice that I'm going to share with you when I read through these responses on my Instagram story are a lot of the things that I need advice on myself and sometimes the only way I take my own advice or actually process what I'm going through and feeling is by doing this which is a whole other reason I recommend we should all talk to someone or you should journal or.

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