And I think the reason I operated in a very transactional way in my life is because I was dealing with a lot of pain or not dealing with it.

So I was very much living as a survivor would, which is just one foot in front of the other, and I was letting life drive me, and I was passing a lot of time.

When I really think back about it,

I passed a lot of time,

luckily doing things that people approved of

or that had some kind of purpose inadvertently or had some kind of stature inadvertently,

but I wasn't consciously making those choices.

So it wouldn't land on me that I was living in paradise or it wouldn't land on me that I was doing a job that other people would strive to do.

And maybe that sounds almost silly, but that's really what I think about it. My pain stopped me from appreciating the path that I was on. Hello it's Light Watkins and we are back with another episode of at the end of the tunnel.

And if this is your first time tuning into the show, here is what you are in for.

I interview luminaries, artists, philanthropists, athletes, creatives, and basically anyone

who has gone above and beyond to be the change they wish to see

in the world. Sometimes they start movements or they create films or they write books that inspire

people and my guest this week started a platform called

Life and Lemonade TV.

Her name is Leah Marville.

Leah grew up in the gym of the Caribbean, otherwise known as Barbados, her father passed away

rather suddenly when she was just 11 years old, and Leah's mission from that point on was

to help provide for herself and her mom.

So when she was approached at 16 to become a model,

she saw that not as an opportunity to be in the limelight,

but as a great way to earn money.

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