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It's Freya today on the mic. I have no idea what has happened to the weather in the UK, but it sent me absolutely insane. I was already halfway there, but I will have to say, if I'm speaking to those of you that suffer with seasonal, what is it? It's like seasonal, ass up your fucking head, depression. I don't know what it is. It's sad, right? It's what it's called like SAD. And if you struggle with this, I am just telling you, you are not alone, but I have some tips. This morning, a friend of mine reached out and she was like, let's go for a walk. And I had just woken up and the clocks have changed. I was like, oh my God, I'm just like, I'm falling apart. But the sun was shining and she was like, let's go for a walk. Like straight away, walked for like four hours, just chatting absolute shit. That is one thing I would say helps. Like actually, if you're out in it, it is so much better. Like the other day it was raining.

And instead of being inside of my house, I was like, no, I need to actually be out in it. So I'm sat outside of this like cafe with like the canopy over me. And the rain is like getting on my laptop. At this point, I didn't even give a fuck. I was just like, I'm just going to actually have to be out in it because it's so much better than if you are just like sad at home and ruminating and i don't know what it is that makes like there are

certain people this just doesn't affect and so many people are like i love autumn i love winter

and it's like i can understand why you would like certain things like i like the clothes that's

about it like i i like autumn clothes i like the clothes that's about it like I like autumn clothes

I like winter clothes but like winter and autumn itself hell on earth get me out of here why the

fuck do I live here honestly because the UK is just not it when it comes to this weather it just

it's just I find it so depressing But I want to know what it is.

It's like some people have it, some people don't.

Like, why is it that I struggle so badly with bad weather?

Like, I was talking about this the other day as well.

Sometimes I get this like real bad like gloom and doom feeling where it feels like an atmosphere.

You know, the vibes just feel off and

sometimes i just like have days where like the whole vibe of the day will just feel weird and i say

things look different by the way i'm not schizophrenic like things don't like actually look different

but they feel like they look different in a way and i think a big part of that is if the weather is bad

i will like have this doom and gloom feeling and I'm like, everything sucks. But yeah, I'm trying to figure out. I mean, I take my vitamin D supplements. I mean, there's got to be something. There's got to be something. Apparently someone is developing like a VR headset or something. I mean, to be fair, you could just put on a VR headset. I can just pretend that I'm in Hawaii or something. I don't know.

But it's like, I think it's just that lack of sunlight behind the eyes is quite damaging to my soul, to my core. And this has been a fucking hard year, guys. This has been a really hard year. And no surprise to anyone. And don't get me wrong, there have been elements of some really, really good things and some amazing people that have also come into my life and have made me so grateful for making those connections. But some most of this year,

oh, shit creek. Fucking shit creak. But like I said on my negative lesbian chat, like I need to

stop like dwelling into that sometimes

it's really difficult because even though you try and keep a positive mindset and then

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