Hey, I am not starting this week's episode by saying, welcome to the Mentally Chill podcast.

I'm blah, well, I kind of just said it, but for the record, my name isn't blah, blah, blah.

It could be. It might as well be. But I'm not saying the regular intro because I really just have

had a terrible week and a half and I really want to

start with the F word but I'm not that badass and in case my mom ever figures out podcasts I don't

want her to hear me say that so I will say damn it I think my mom can handle that word so damn

it's been a shitty week man but really really, this is kind of starting the show

with my new segment, things I should tell my therapist, because I should tell my therapist about

how I'm afraid to say the F word and I'm 35 years old. What is going on? It's not that I'm afraid

to say the F word. I've said it in the show a million times, but I'm just afraid for my mom to hear it.

And I think if she listened to a podcast, she'd probably listen to maybe the first minute or five.

And so I think usually I save the F bombs for the deeper part of the convos here, not like the straight up intro.

But I really should talk to my therapist about why that makes me nervous.

It does.

It makes me very nervous.

Like she will think I'm essentially a meth addict giving BJs to survive if I say the F word.

That's kind of the equivalent. But the reason I want to say the F word so badly is because I got

devastating news about my dog, which is who you hear clanking around in the background.

He has severe dementia and just paces and paces and paces, and he keeps pacing over his

water bowl. But the news I got is regarding his kidneys and they're kidney failure. And I am devastated

and I wanted to talk more about it on this intro, but we're not going to worry

about that right now because I've already cried all the tears. One could cry. So it's

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