Hi friends. We got so much to talk about. I'm ready to fight. I'm ready to argue. I'm ready to let this out. Okay. We've got to talk about so many different aspects of leaving people alone with themselves and how it's the best feeling. It's the best thing you could do for yourself and them. So this starts in like a weird

revelation of sorts. So I just turned 28, a birthday just passed, right? And I had a whole come

apart because I'm 28 yourself. Ew. I still feel like I'm 21. Like when I go to the club

or like I go out and they ask for my ID, I still get a little nervous. Like I used to have fake ID. So I'm like, I get a little nervous when I give him my real ID now. I'm like, I'm still that young in my own head. But I felt like 22 for a while now. And I woke up on my birthday and I feel like I'm, oh, like I'm 28 years old. It's like you go to sleep,

22 and you wake up 28. I feel like something's off. I feel scammed. I feel very weird about it.

And I had this whole come apart mentally because I'm like, yo, I'm 28. I'm a 28 year old man on

TikTok. Disgusted with myself.

I'm so absolutely fucking embarrassed of myself.

When I woke up on my birthday, that's what I was thinking.

Like, I'm like, oh my God, I'm 28 years old on TikTok and Instagram, on social media.

I wanted to throw up.

Not because I was hung over. I was. But I wanted to throw up because of this. Oh, I think everybody can understand why that's an ick. I got an ick with myself. Being grown all of a sudden is the problem. Because I feel like a grown man. And then I look at what I'm doing. I'm like, yo, you're grown. And what are you doing with your life? Go do something respectable. Like, go deal drugs or something. Like, what are we doing on Instagram, TikTok? I was disgusted with myself. But I've been sitting with it for the past few days. Because I really was contemplating quitting. I'm like, the podcast is respectable. I like it. I like my podcast. I enjoy it. I feel like that's something I can do at my grown age now. But

TikTok and Instagram, I was just like, no. Like, I need to quit. I need to hang that up and

stop posting on these platforms. Like, that's embarrassing to me. And I was talking to my mom about it,

talking to my friends about it. And everybody's like, Leo, you're fine. Like, you don't do social

media how other people do. Like, you're 28, but like, you're allowed to be on social media.

And I was like, no, that's not what I wanted for my life. This is like when I had to come to terms of being gay. I'm like, this ain't what I wanted for my life. That's, this is how it feels. Like I was coming to terms like, this is not how I wanted my life to turn out. And I had to accept that I was gay. I'm fine with it now. But that's how it felt with this. It's like, okay, I'm'm 28 i do social media for a living ew like i just

have the ick about myself like that's i that that that is not aligned with what i see as like

respectable about a man and i woke up and i'm like yeah i'm a grown man now there's no getting

around it i'm 28 so i'm sitting with this because I was actually contemplating quitting.

I'm like, you know, we got to hang it up. It's over. It's done. It's a wrap. I didn't plan for this to happen so soon. I went to sleep 22 and I woke up 28. So we just got a board ship. I actually really started to get down about it. I started to feel like a failure.

And as soon as I spoke the words out loud, I feel like a failure.

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