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Hi Besties! Welcome to or welcome back to Try Not To Care, and happy fucking airy season.

If you don't follow me on my socials, which if you want to, they're linked in the description

and not to to my own horn, but I'm pretty hot on Instagram, and pretty one might say

witty on TikTok. But if you don't follow me on there, or you don't know me personally,

I am in Aries, and if you're listening to this, the day drops tomorrow is my birthday, April 4th.

So yeah, I just kind of wanted to have a little birthday event session. I think it's a very

well-known universal thing that hot girls cry on their birthday. I absolutely dread my birthday

every year, and it wasn't always like that, but every year since I've entered my 20s, I have had

such a hard time. So today, I just kind of want to talk about what's on my mind, what I'm struggling

with, and also the deeper meaning to why so many of us fucking hate our birthdays, because

let's be so for real. It really isn't about our birthdays, now is it? So like I said, I didn't

always feel this way about my birthday. Growing up, I actually love celebrating my birthday,

and I looked forward to it. I would count down the months and the days leading up to it,

but as I got older and got into my 20s, I would have such bad anxiety and dread my birthday.

It would be a month until it, and I'd be having a full-blown mental breakdown about it.

For a while, I didn't really understand why I felt this way, or what changed, because if you know

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