Right, Steph. And so it's basically just to kind of recap my message. I'm a father to three kids. And I have a big issue with controlling my anger.

I think I've improved over the years. I have went to something like anger management a couple years. I mean, it was anger management a couple years ago, but just like a course.

So I think I'm doing a lot better, but I still I get these times when you know, the kids aren't listening to me or they're doing something bad and it just piles on until you know, I, I guess I can't control myself.

I don't I don't hit the kids, but I am aggressive. I yell a lot and things of that nature basically just the kind of behavior that I do not want to.

I don't want to, you know, do those things. And I don't want to feel that way.

But it's I guess for lack of a better way to put it, I can't control it. I know I know that I'm responsible for my actions, obviously, and I do take responsibility, but it feels like I can control it, I guess.

Right, right, no, nobody spoken and good for you for hanging in there and sorting this out. That's a tough thing. Do you want to tell me a little bit about, I mean, origin story childhood and so on?

Sure, Stefan. Well, is this like one day I was born and then, or is there a particular spot where you want me to start in a my childhood or?

I would say, I mean, I this good remember, I mean, this stuff that's pretty memory probably we wouldn't be able to do much much, but yeah, so what was your childhood like a relationship with your parents school, how you were disciplined, that sort of stuff.

Okay, well, I guess I'll break each of those down. So so relationship with parents.

At the time, everything seemed good, I think in retro spect.

I wasn't as close with my dad as I would have liked to certainly now at this point in my life, I wish I was closer to him. He was he was in the military.

He wasn't always gone away, but sometimes it was of course, you know, for however long, but even when he was around, you know, say when I was when I was done school and we were both and he was done work and it was the evening time.

He would kind of just watch TV and then we wouldn't really we didn't frequently do a lot of things together or talk a lot and as per my mother, I think I was probably closer to her.

But you know, I can't recall like super happy memories of things that we would do every week, for example, like things like that.

Some people might have routines that they had or special days of the week with their parents doing certain things.

I never did anything like organized sports or anything or clubs. So it was kind of just, you know, I've always just kind of said it was like average.

I mean, nothing really remarkable either the way I grew up or my relationship with my parents really.

It wasn't it wasn't strenuous and it also wasn't I don't think like super closer anything.

Yeah, I don't think about it. I mean, often I mean, I think about my relationship with my dad, but in terms of my childhood, it's it feels so painfully average that.

I can't even really I can't pinpoint anything in particular. I mean, my dad had had a had a temper problem as well and I think to an extent still does.

But I guess I'll leave it at that for now. If that's maybe enough for you to kind of to pick out on this you think I should give you some more material.

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