Hello out there and good morning. This is waking up with Jack Luna. I'm your host Jack

Luna. It's six in the morning because dark topic hasn't been as consistent as I

wanted it to be. I am doing two additional episodes on two or thirteen of

patreon every month. I wasn't able to keep up and stay as publicly relevant as I

wanted to. So I figured I do something free thought. Oh God, I can't even say

the word. This is a rough start. Free flowing and hopefully it's entertaining for

you. I plan on doing this maybe once a week if it gets better in the next couple

of minutes quick. I might even just stop this right now because this is a

this is a nightmare suddenly. This is this is stepping into a nightmare with Jack

Luna. This is not waking up. Anyways, I've been trying to get sober for a while.

I've had this focus on it. Like if I can quit drinking and smoke at cigarettes

and whatever, then my mind will clear up and I'll be able to get rid of this

horrible feeling I always have in my chest. I got to I have anxiety I guess and

all through my life mainly really through my twenties. I think I did a lot of

damage to myself psychically and like emotionally spiritually. I worked in a

group home for like ten years and I think I should have left about two years

in but I got stuck. I think it was because of the money or the lack the lack of

money. Like a paycheck to paycheck mentality but also because I began to

like rely on the people that I worked there with as like family and the kids

and stuff as well and I thought that they needed me to be there which is a

mistake. I mean there's always new people who will work there and take your

place but I had this weird mindset when kids you know they would pass away and

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