5-MINUTE FRIDAY: I Have to Get Something Off of My Chest
Hurdle with Emily Abbate
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4.9 • 1.4K Ratings
🗓️ 19 June 2020
⏱️ 14 minutes
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Summary
In April I was in a really bad place. Emotionally and physically. On the 10th of that month, I shared a story on Instagram about going into my kitchen 14 different times in one day. I was using food to cope with my problems, and I wasn't feeling good. I wrote about it some for SHAPE. Stepping on the scale was the final straw, reminding me of a difficult college #hurdlemoment, and thus began a lot of inner work trying to get to a better place.
Journaling. Talking. Therapy. Strengthening. Less judgement. More acceptance. Setting boundaries. Better interactions. Now, a couple months later, I'm really proud of my progress. But here's the thing: No one's reaching out to me and commenting about my attitude. What I'm hearing, from friends and complete strangers alike, are comments on my appearance. In today's 5-MINUTE FRIDAY, I'm opening up about how that makes me feel.
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| 0:00.0 | Hey, Hurdlers. Emily Abadi here, chiming in for five-minute Friday from Hurtle. |
| 0:20.5 | You all know the drill on five-minute Friday. |
| 0:23.6 | I share a story, I offer a prompt, and then I break things down in my highlights of the week. |
| 0:30.3 | The things that I am loving, content picks, charities, humans, you know. |
| 0:43.4 | This week for Five Minute Friday, I am talking about something that's been popping up in my DMs a lot on Instagram. And that is comments about my looks. Not just, |
| 0:51.7 | you know, you're so pretty or something like that. No, that's not what I'm here to talk about. |
| 0:56.7 | What I'm here to talk about is a frequent comment I'm getting lately on my size and my muscle tone and things of that nature. |
| 1:07.6 | And it's interesting, right? Because when I look back on the last few months, I have had |
| 1:14.3 | quite the time. I mean, back on April 10th, if I scroll through my Instagram, that's when I posted |
| 1:20.6 | this, what felt like really vulnerable post talking about how many times I had been going to |
| 1:27.3 | the fridge on the regular. |
| 1:29.0 | And I think the day that I put up that post, I had counted 14 different times that I walked |
| 1:34.6 | into my kitchen to look for something to eat. And at the time, I was really struggling, right? |
| 1:39.4 | I felt really helpless. It was at the beginning or toward the beginning of the entire coronavirus situation. |
| 1:48.7 | We were all told to stay at home as much as possible. My routine was completely out of whack. |
| 1:54.0 | I wasn't running because my hip was really painful. I was crying sporadically at my desk. |
| 2:04.9 | I mean, things felt like they were at a low point for sure. And in that post, I wrote something like, I don't think that I'm failing by going to |
| 2:11.2 | the kitchen constantly, but I would be lying if I didn't acknowledge that I think this looking for something when it comes to |
| 2:20.0 | food and beverage. It's me trying to cope with things that I'm not confronting on a personal |
| 2:25.8 | level. And I mean, I was dealing with a lot. My self-talk was awful. And I remember shortly |
| 2:32.3 | after putting up that post, I braved the scale for the first |
| 2:37.1 | time in a long time as if it felt like I was back in college and I was about to get on the |
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