Hello. Hi friends. This episode is going to meet the most honest one I've done ever, I think.

I just hit 10 million followers on TikTok. And to be honest, I was terrified to hit it. Absolutely

terrified. And it kind of relates to like the fear of being seen.

I don't know where to start with what's been happening in the past two weeks,

like mentally.

Everything makes sense.

I really want to share it because I feel like it will help a lot of you.

But to say like me, I have an issue with being seen, like a fear of being seen.

That's like a big thing.

Everybody's talking about it all the time.

I got it too.

And with hitting 10 million followers on TikTok, it made it real where I'm special in a way.

Like I've always felt since I'm a little kid, like there's something special in me

and about me. And I've always been the exception with everything. And it was always a negative

thing. Always the exception, always the one that teachers used to make an example out of.

I was always the one where I don't care what it was. If everybody had to do a certain thing and I followed the exact directions, it wouldn't work for me.

And that relates to everything in my life, from trying to be on social media, from trying to just have a normal relationship, to trying to work, make money, be a nurse.

Like, I did it, but like it got destroyed.

Every single thing in my life I've tried to do, it doesn't work.

And it's made me feel like such the exception in like a negative way for so long.

But then getting on social media and the way that things have kind of gone,

I kind of see that I'm special. And when my following hit 10 million, I was so scared to look at

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