Hi Besties, welcome back to Try Not To Care, it's your girl Ashley.

I hope you had an awesome weekend and are ready to kick ass this week.

Where in the month of February, which I kind of love, I'm not a super romantic kind of

girl, but the idea of having a month or at least like the first two weeks of the month

where everyone is all lovey-dovey, everything's all pink and red, my boyfriend's buying

me shit, and I have an excuse to do some self-care and give myself some self-love.

I'm just really into that.

Next week's episode is going to be all about self-love because it'll be Valentine's

Day, but today is going to be a little less cutie and we're going to get into some

hard to hear, but you need to hear content.

So today we're going to be talking about breakups like romantic breakups and relationships

that don't work and how to move past them in a healthy way.

I am someone who doesn't have the best track record when it comes to relationships, thankfully

I am in a super healthy relationship now and we've been together for four years, but

before him, my love life was a fucking mess.

I was in two long-term relationships before him with boys who at the time I genuinely

thought love me and I love them, but looking back on both relationships, they were toxic

as hell and when I was in those relationships I knew they weren't healthy, but I romanticized

them so much and kept telling myself that this is how relationships were and it wasn't

ever going to get better than that.

I would tell myself the reason these boys would treat me the way that they did was because

they were in love with me and they love me so much that it made them insane, that it

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