Before worn to my friends that the episode that you're about to listen to is my most unscripted episode ever I go off on what people call tania tangents I don't stay on script because I don't have one and I talk about many different things however it's really symbolic of what the episode is about getting back to my roots because that's what my life is.

Life has felt like it's been very unscripted and I have gone off on different paths to find my way back to where it all started so I hope you enjoy this episode. Let's dive in.

Welcome to the School of Self-Image where personal development meets style. Here's your hostess master life coach Tanya Lee.

Hello my dear friends. I haven't been putting this episode off for almost three days now and that's so unusual for me I usually don't procrastinate but this has been one of those episodes that I've had a lot of resistance around doing.

Number one I've had this annoying dry cough and so every time I go to talk it's been an issue but I think it's been deeper than that. This is a very personal kind of podcast where I'm not really teaching anything but I'm sharing an experience that I'm going through right now.

And the reason why I'm doing this podcast is when I sat down with my creative manager who helps me put together the content planned for the year.

We were having this conversation around me moving back home and what that is about and what I'm experiencing and she was like I think it would be really fun for you to do a podcast about getting back to your roots.

And so at the time I was like oh that's a great idea. Let's do that. And now that it's time for me to actually sit down and record it I find myself wanting to put it off.

And so usually when there's something like that that you want to put off you need to look at it. You need to really examine what's going on.

And I think for me it's because this is such a personal personal topic and sometimes it's hard to articulate things that are very personal.

And I like to be articulate. I love to explain things well. And so I just took all of the pressure off of me and I said you know what for this episode I'm just going to talk.

I'm just going to share from the heart and talk about getting back to my roots which I never thought I would be talking about.

I never thought I would be doing a podcast about getting back to my roots because for a long time I wanted to get as far away from my roots as possible.

I know some of you all can relate to this. Maybe you've left your roots and you're like there's no way I'm going back there.

I get it. And maybe some of you are listening to this and you're thinking I want to get away from this place as far as I can.

And I understand that. I know that feeling more than anyone because I spent probably first 25 years of my life thinking that almost daily.

Do you ever feel like maybe you ended up in the wrong family or the wrong place? Like something went wrong up in the heavens.

I remember my brother joking. He was like I'm pretty sure my mom brought him the wrong baby. You do not belong to this family because I was always so different.

And first of all, I just have to say this before I continue. I told you all this is going to be me just talking but I think this is an important point.

I could not have landed in a better family than the family that I was given.

My parents, my brother, they're all just extraordinary people like I love them madly and I'm very, very blessed to have the family that I have.

But I'm talking about the culture, the place, the mindset, how people eat and live.

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