You are listening to the Take a Break podcast with Rachel Hart, episode 330.

Whether you want to drink less or stop drinking, this podcast will help you change the habit from the inside out.

We're challenging conventional wisdom about why people drink and why it can be hard to resist temptation.

No labels, no judgment, just practical tools to take control of your desire and stop worrying about your drinking.

Now here's your host, Rachel Hart.

All right, everybody. We are talking about probably your least favorite topic today.

We are talking about failure, but I hope that you will stay on through the rest of this episode.

Because if you can start to implement what I'm going to share with you, and if you can actually start to change your relationship with failure,

it is going to dramatically change your relationship with alcohol. It will dramatically change your relationship with yourself.

It will dramatically change your relationship with your life.

I feel like I have spent like the first half of my life learning to hate failure and resent failure and be embarrassed about failure and try to hide from failure and believe that it meant something was truly wrong with me.

And the work that I have been doing over the last decade has been about trying to unravel all of that, trying to really change my relationship with failure,

trying to change how I show up. And the reason why this is so important is because how you respond the morning after you had way too much to drink.

The morning after you broke your commitment, you said you were going to be good, and then you weren't.

You said you weren't going to have any, and then you gave in.

The way that you respond is everything. And one of the things that I've been thinking about when I think about failure and I think about going back in time when I would wake up in the morning and my eyes would open, and I just had that sinking feeling like, oh my god, I did it again, I screwed up again.

And one of the questions that to me felt worse than any hangover was lying in bed thinking to myself, God, am I ever going to figure this out?

Now I'd have that question and it would just fill me with so much dread.

It would fill me with dread because I had tried so many things. I had made so many rules. I had so many good reasons to change and to follow the rule.

And yet, nothing was working, or it would work for a little bit, but eventually I'd given.

And the more that I would fail, the more defeated I would feel. And now here's the thing. When you start feeling defeated, you can easily slip into this place of, you know what?

Like, why bother? Like, why am I even trying to fix this? Why am I even trying to be good? Why am I even trying to change?

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