314: What if you harbored an unrelenting fury?

This Is Actually Happening

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True Crime, Tiah, Documentary, Society & Culture

4.6 • 9.9K Ratings

🗓️ 9 April 2024

⏱️ 61 minutes

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Summary

After losing her entire family at ten years old, a woman’s grief evolves into a self-destructive rage, and as systems of care, punishment and rehabilitation keep failing her, she’s forced to create her own path to healing.

Today’s episode featured Amy Ronhaar. You can find out more about Amy on her website, www.amyronhaar.com, and you can read more details of her story in her memoir Raising Amy: A Daughter’s Memoir on Book Baby https://store.bookbaby.com/book/raising-amy1 If you’d like to contact her, you can reach out over email at [email protected]. Amy’s story was also featured on the podcast Bunny Hugs, by Todd Rennebohm.

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Aviva Lipkowitz

Content/Trigger Warnings: death, domestic abuse, self-harm, suicide attempt, rape, sexual assault, drug use, explicit language

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0:00.0	This is actually happening features real experiences that often include traumatic events.
0:04.1	Please consult the show notes for specific content warnings on each episode and for more information about support services. I was just so, so, there's no, there's no word to explain the fury.
0:15.0	I was just so, so, so, so,
0:20.0	there's no word to explain the fury of this grief.
0:28.0	And I was just letting everybody in the whole world know it.
0:43.0	From Wundry, I'm Witt Misledyne. You are listening to this is actually happening.
0:47.0	Episode 314.
0:55.0	What have you harbored What do I say? What do I say? What do I say? What do I say? What do I say?
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1:55.1	His actions triggered the biggest removal of spies by any government in history.
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2:46.8	It was this giant field, and my great-grandmother, her house was at the center.
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