I felt like for that whole time period, I would go to bed every night hating myself.

I just remember every night, like, that inner critic coming out and saying, you're such a bad mom.

You are such a bad mom.

How could you do that again?

Am I ruining my children?

That was the hardest thing for me to confront.

This is my job now. I'm a mother and this is what I wanted. So how can you be so unhappy when

this is what you wanted? This is what you dreamed of your whole life. This is what you prayed for.

A healthy baby.

I can't imagine him not having a sibling, but I don't ever want to experience this again.

I'm terrified.

I'm Cynthia Overgard, owner of Hypnoberthing of Connecticut,

childbirth advocate, and postpartum support specialist.

And I'm Trescia Ludwig, certified nurse midwife and international board certified lactation consultant.

And this is the Down to Birth podcast.

Childbirth is something we're made to do, but how do we have our safest and most satisfying experience in today's medical culture?

Let's dispel the myths and get down to birth.

Angela and Corinne, thank you so much for joining me and Trisha today in this conversation about your postpartum experience.

Corinne, you're in my current postpartum support group, and I know you're a client of both mine and Trisha's.

Tricia, of course, with respect to breastfeeding and Angela, you responded to our stories about postpartum rage.

This has been the hot topic of the season in our community. It's very underserved. And we have no plan for this episode other than to have

an open conversation about your experiences. So why don't we begin by having Angela and then

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