Welcome to episode 255 with my guest, Tim F.

I'm Paul Gilmarten. This is the Metal Illness Happy Hour, a place for honesty about all the battles in our heads.

From medically diagnosed conditions, past traumas, and sexual dysfunction to everyday compulsive negative thinking.

This shows not meant to be a substitute for professional metal counseling. It's not a doctor's office. I'm not a therapist.

It's more like a waiting room that doesn't suck. The website for this show is mentalpod.com.

Go check out our beautifully newly redesigned website.

Been getting a ton of great feedback from people who like it and say it's easier to navigate.

There's all kinds of stuff you can do there. You can fill out a survey anonymously and maybe

we'll wind up reading it on the show. You can donate to the show. You can read blogs. You can

join the forum, all kinds of stuff. Please go check that out. I hope your

bermuda triangle of the holiday season is going okay. I don't know what else to call that

time between Thanksgiving and Christmas, where a nap is like a nugget of gold.

I typically between Thanksgiving and Christmas will get up, go to bed around three, get up around

11.30 and then back in bed by four o'clock. Sleep again from four to six. I'm proud to say that I've

not been shaming myself for it. I wish it were different. It's not that I'm even tired.

It's that, and I know I've talked about this before, but it's just that feeling of I just don't want

to. I've had enough of the day at that point and it's really the best that I can do. When I do

wake up, I feel even though it's the same day, it feels like a different day. I guess that has to

work for me. My wife and I were talking about this in counseling one day. We were talking about how

she loves the holidays. I'm not a huge fan of them. My depression tends to get worse.

Our therapist said, well, did something happen in your past? I said, I don't think so.

It's just never a really fun time for me. My wife started laughing and she said,

...