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This Is Actually Happening

246: What if you could never be what they wanted?

This Is Actually Happening

Wondery

True Crime, Tiah, Documentary, Society & Culture

4.69.9K Ratings

🗓️ 13 September 2022

⏱️ 48 minutes

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Summary

Always feeling she had failed the ideals of her strict Muslim, South Asian family and community, a woman struggles to navigate trauma, shame and self-expression, when unexpected news forces her into a powerful reckoning.


Today‘s episode featured Azzah Ahmad. You can find out more about Azzah by visiting her Instagram page @Lifeazziknowit.


Content/Trigger Warnings:  sexual abuse of a minor, suicidal ideation, explicit language

 

Producer: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli

 

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Transcript

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0:00.0

This is actually happening, features real experiences that often include traumatic events.

0:04.2

Please consult the show notes for specific content warnings on each episode

0:07.6

and for more information about support services.

0:17.5

When you feel like somebody has punched you and the life has been sucked out of your mouth,

0:26.3

it was that but tenfold. It was a complete out of body experience.

0:34.6

From Wondery, I'm Whit Missildine. You are listening to this is actually happening.

0:51.6

Episode 246. What if you could never be what they wanted?

1:10.5

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1:13.9

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1:31.6

For many, it's their biggest fear. Amarissa Jones, host of The Vanished.

1:36.1

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1:40.8

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1:59.9

I was born in Canada. My parents and my eight siblings were born in India. That's where my parents

2:10.0

are from. They came from quite a poor village. They had an arranged marriage.

2:17.7

And from what I hear, they were very much in love since day one, even though they had an arranged

2:24.0

marriage. My mom was around 17 when she had her first child. They moved to Delhi. They settled

2:35.0

into an apartment flat and they had eight kids and they all lived in this small room.

2:42.8

Six girls and two boys. We come from a Muslim family and so my dad was very much into his faith.

2:54.0

He was very religious. My mom was sort of like, yeah, I'm Muslim. But I'm also kind of liberal

3:01.6

and out there. But back then, the rules were already set for them. The wife will take care of

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