Welcome to Ear Biscuits. I'm Rhett. And I'm Link. This week at the round table of dim lighting,

it's part four of, I think what we're calling four total episodes in our last years,

slash spiritual journey series. I hope we're calling it four parts if it is part four.

Well, there may be other parts. I mean, well, yeah, yeah, we're, that's what I was going to get

in conversation. So in part one and two, we discussed what happened externally between college

and becoming YouTubers. And then in parts three, you, you, you discuss what happened more

internally with you in terms of your spiritual deconstruction. And here we are at part four,

it's my turn to spill my guts. And I'm, I'm going to spew my guts all over these notes I've

taken because yeah, just like you, I really, I wanted to, this is a great exercise for me to

organize my thoughts. I think as I share, I think there'll be elements of it that I'm still,

it'll be kind of obvious that I'm still processing. So I think it's, it's been a very,

it's been very good for me to, to prefer this episode. I feel emotional. I think just in general,

and also nervous to share. Well, you know, before you get into it, I will say that, you know, having,

having shared first, I mean, they got told Jesse when I got home is like, I was like, man,

I just feel like this giant weight has been lifted off of me, you know, like, it's, it's,

it's because we talked about it. Well, it's because it was, well, it's just, I feel like there's this

story that I've had that is, is, is so personal and you kind of carried around and you know how much it

is impacted who you are. Yeah. But you know how kind of touchy it is to talk about it. Right.

And you just get it out there. Like I, I started realizing how much emotion I had kind of attached

to it, but it was actually more kind of after I had done it that it sort of like kind of released

a little bit. Did you weeping the shower? I don't remember weeping.

But no, it's just, yeah, I, what I'm getting at it is it's, it's, it is super emotional. And I will

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